yesterday was going to be a normal day, so i thought. i went to church and then my step-mom reminded me that my eldest sister was going to go get a cat from my mom's best friend and so i tagged along. well, a visit with jeanie is never going to be a short one, so i was excited to go hang out with her again like i did when my mom was around. she lives by herself and had to make cookies but didn't want to alone. so we made some pumpkin cookies with her and were just having a blast, like it always is with her. and throughout the whole time together, she keeps saying little comments here and there about how i am so much like my mom and how she loves me. she keeps making it seem like a blessing that she got to be with my sister and me, while it was the other way around.
see since my mom passed away, i've felt very different from my family and that they dont really understand me like my mom did. and i feel like i have to surpress myself at home and not be me. but hanging out with jeanie just reminds me of way back when and it is such a blessing to be with her and really be me. i also was lacking the Christmas spirit a little bit this year. i mean i've watched some movies, but i didn't even feel like decorating the tree. i'm very excited for our family gift which is to go skiing in Vermont for 2 days, but i just didn't have a Christmas spirit. but making cookies, listening to Christmas music, and just laughing for an afternoon really reminds you what Christmas spirit is about. it is about love, joy, helping each other out, and Jesus' birth. all of the above were hit topics yesterday.
i can also say that every time i'm with jeanie its like being with my mom again which is a blessing that goes beyond words. so i'm very thankful for the opportunity to go a chill with her yesterday.....(moral of the story, try to find something you can do to help people, because you get blessed in return.....it keeps your Christmas Spirit in shape!)
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